Dogs .... :)

Its ironic that I'm writing a post about dogs.
but right now ... I have this new unconditional love for dogs and the reason for that would be the movie, 'Marley & Me' ...

I have never had a dog in my life. I've just known a lot of people who had dogs ... some who treated him/her like a part of their family. I never realised as to what it really meant to them that they treated the dog in such a loving way.

I somehow had a very different feeling towards them.
Some were cute to look at... Some cute to touch..
Some looked huge and scary .. Some looked tiny and adorable ..
I always found it a lil weird for a dog to lick me ..
Always had a problem with them not being so clean and sometimes messy ..
had a problem with them creating a havoc ...

Strange enough, there were times when I was jealous of them ...
Sometimes, I used to wonder how it would be to live like a dog..
so free ... and not a care in this world ...
Other times, I got jealous when the dogs got more love than I did ... :p ...

But after seeing the movie, I felt amazing at how a dog is so loyal ... and faithful ..
and at how he wakes you up in the morning ...
how he waits for you to get back from work ...
how he's there to give you love when you need it ...
how he listens to you (most of the time or rather sometimes :) )
how he plays along with you ....
how he looks with those cute eyes when you're talking to them ...
how he can be crazy and wild without worryin about anything ...
how he can keep you the best company when you're alone ...

I could go on ...
anyways, I would love to have a dog who is like Marley ...
or any dog ... who can actually make you so happy ...
who can make you feel welcome any time ...
who can make you feel special ALL THE TIME ...
who can make you feel so awesome and extraordinary ALL THE TIME....
who can never make you feel like you're alone ...

I wish I could have a dog now ... to whom I can share with whatever I'm feeling now and not worry about what he is gonna think ...

I'd like to end this post with the lines by John Grogan, the author of 'Marley & Me' -

'A dog has no use for fancy cars, big homes or designer clothes. A waterlogged stick will do just fine. A dog judges others not by their color or creed or class but by who they are inside. A dog doesn't care if you are rich or poor, educated or illiterate, clever or dull.
GIVE HIM YOUR HEART AND HE WILL GIVE YOU HIS.
How many people can you say that about?
How many people can make you feel rare and pure and special?
How many people can make you feel extraordinary?' - John Grogan

God bless!

I miss ..

"Loneliness is always looking for a friend
It found me once and it has been around since then
Loneliness is never waiting by the door
It sweeps right through and it will never be ignored
Why, why was I chosen?
Why am I left without?

The love of my life, the love that I need
The love that they say is in life for free
The love of my dreams, the love that I want
Loneliness knows me by name

Loneliness knows everything I keep inside
My endless thoughts in the silence of the night
Loneliness is the one who made me see
Ain't nobody else who can make a change but me
Why, why was I chosen?
Why am I left without?

The love of my life, the love that I need
The love that they say is in life for free
The love of my dreams, the love that I want
Loneliness knows me by name !! "


These lines from a song bumped into my head as I was sitting in my room ...
Been bout 2 to 3 days since I came back from newcastle ...
its the new year... and yet it doesnt feel new ... it doesnt feel that great as it is supposed to feel ...
Usually, the first few days of the new year atleast give a feeling as such ...
Came to my uncle's place in London as they left to India and gave me the keys ... tried to keep myself occupied ... watched a couple of movies... fell asleep ... and then ..
I wake up ... to see myself in tears....
quite unusual, as i had been used to living alone... all through my life ....
and then it had no end to it ...
kept thinking bout the people in my life ... the memories I had ... the times I had back in hyderabad ... the good times that I had in newcastle just a few days back ... and now Im just sitting all alone in this house ........ where tears were pouring down like a new born baby ...

I had felt lonely many times in my life ... never to the extent where I've cried so much ...
The loneliness that I felt led me to thinking of other things that were going on in my life ... which led to so much more pain ... so many to put down here ...
the pain is so indescribable ... its as if someone has reached down your throat and pulled out your heart and smashed it on ur face ... Its too graphic I know but thats exactly how I feel right now ...

I miss my family ...
I miss the one I love ...
I miss my friends ...
I miss roaming around ...
I miss having someone by my side ...
I miss being loved ...
I miss driving around with my friends ...
I miss not having to do assignments ...
I miss the amazing biryani from Alhamdulillah (Nampally) ...
I miss having coffee from Cafe Coffee Day with the gang ...
I miss sitting at the entrance of Nidhi's apartments and talking for hours ...
I miss waking up to the calls of nidhi and aishu ...
I miss the night outs ...
I miss roaming late nights in my brothers car ...
I miss Vineeta's sandwiches ...
I miss staying up the whole night to make a video ...
I miss HOME ...

and right now Home could be so many things for me ...
it could be hyderabad ...
it could be kuwait with family ...
it could be newcastle with cousins ...
it could be london with friends ...
it could be anything that could take me out of this gut-wrenching pain ...

I wish there was never a thing called loneliness ... I wish there was never a feeling called lonely ..
And I know that even with a million people around you, you can still feel lonely .. dont even get me started about that ...

anyways ... Its all in the JIGSAW ... !!! Its probably a passing moment ... thats hard enough to swallow ...